我又玩了一段时间王者荣耀。
我有些灰心丧气，因为我学了一段时间，但是发现想要的职位已经关闭了。
我投了另一份简历，但也没有消息。
A summary of my gameplay
Well, I don’t know why, but I tends to play games all night and day.
Once I even played overnight on Saturday. The next day I feel very tired, and sleeps almost all day.
I tends to play fast for a round after failed. Even after playing one or two hours I still plays; but recently I noticed it and decideded to relax for a few minutes.
我输了一局后，就马上想开下一局。
my game history
在大三至大四的时候，同学都在忙着考研。我认为考研没有用，但我也不想找工作。
我当时非常挑剔 - 这是Telegram惹的祸。它真的会毁了你。 Leading people on telegram are knowledgeable and have high salary. Seeing them talk makes me have a false illusion that I have that ability too.
So I’m very picky with things - study and job. I want a good quality of study, so I don’t go with the flow. I also want a good job, so I don’t select at the job market.
因此我白天和晚上都在玩王者荣耀。我认为自己很失败；我不想占其他人的自习室，因此我躲在宿舍里。
我得到了同学的安恒信息的推荐。但是我没有去。
就这样到了大四 - 我没有找到学习的意义；反而责怪老师没有教到我东西。
我回到家里，才明白事情的苦难。我去了北京。受了很多苦。但这是后话。
Until I got back home I finally realized how things are hard. Even basic human rights are not there.
Then I go to Beijing and experienced many hardships; but this is an afterstory.
Another wave of play recently
It’s dragon boat festival, and a lot of people are to play.
But my ability is there. I’m not reachable for the “king“ status in the game.
最近的一局是我和安琪拉一同对局。我是项羽，我的对线是孙策。
我假装操作很差（但事实也是这样）， 孙策就一直开船，前期很不利。
但我认为安琪拉很强。因此我会有时在游戏中和他一起走路。
他在下路带了一波兵线。我理解了 - 于是跟着推了下路一塔。
随后我又死了好几次。然后风暴龙王刷新了，对面死了三个 - 剩下两个，在和我们抢龙王。
然而下路还是有一波兵线。我跟着兵线去推了水晶。
thoughts with this
Although my ability may not be good, I’m with the environment - so anything will eventually met with me. It’s like me is the thief who blocks the road 😂.
Well, if I take care of the fundamentals, I won’t lose.
吃饭
我玩游戏的时候会经常忘记吃饭。After realized this, I said to myself: “you are sick!” “what’s wrong with you?”
But this is a habit formed within my home. My mother works mixed time, so I often don’t get meals. I also don’t want to make it - beacause it’s child labor.
Gemini said - even if you don’t feel hungry, at least eat some meat and rice. I followed this, and I somehow get by.
睡觉
我有时会在睡觉前玩游戏。但这对身体很不好。
但这也是从大学养成的习惯。我的同学和朋友都会在熄灯后 - 10:45 - 玩游戏。
我这样持续了几天，感到肝脏和心脏都不舒服。
因此周六晚上我决定9点前睡觉。第二天5点我开始了游戏。我感到了熬夜的人的弱点 - 他们没有能量，只能互喷。
在那之后我睡了一下午 - 但不舒服的感觉仍然存在。
Not the end
I uninstalled the game, but I might install it again.
As Gemini said, this game requires a lot of energy and thought to play. The key thing is to keep up with the normal schedule - make meal, buy meat, and clean trashes.
As well as a good relax. No sleep is OK - what my body want is just a peaceful and silent time.
The fundamental
这是我的习惯–玩不玩游戏并不关键 - 事情如何占据我的生活？
无论是游戏或学习，我都把它都当成我的一切。因为我没有零花钱，也没有固定的吃饭。
我做事情的时候也会熬夜。C++甚至比王者荣耀更难. Even Gemini can’t get it.
我也不会去公园里走。
Well, money is not important to me now - what I lack is a peaceful life since little. I don’t have enough peace and nutrition since little; and what I only want is a peaceful life.
So the essential thing after get some money is to make my home soundproof; and earplugs; and noise cancelling headphones. These are essential.
Current affair
Will I continue study for a job? After I get some money, I will continue paying the debt.
What about the future? Seems people around me already thought it clear, and it seems that then are going further and further.
But I’m not worried. Decision comes from enough knowledge. Keep basic things, and go with the heart, and I will get it.